I am broken and I cannot be repaired. I beg you to take this desire away from me. Because I cannot do this anymore. I am not strong enough. This is not my story. I am broken and cannot be repaired. Inside me hurts. I can’t take the pain. I don’t want to feel this way any more. I need to let this go. I want you to take this out of my heart. I want something new to grow in it’s place. Something my body can actually do. I cannot do this any more. I am not strong enough. I don’t want this pain anymore. I want this all to go away. I want this chapter to close on my life. I want to escape this world, this world of hurt and disappointment. I don’t want this anymore. I understand that I don’t deserve this. I’m sorry for wasting your time God. I don’t want this hurt anymore. I can’t do this any more. Please God I’m begging you to take this off my heart and give my husband the love he deserves. I am broken and don’t know if I can love myself enough right now. I don’t know if I want love right now. I am guilty of being selfish and silly. Silly to believe that I could do this.
I am broken.